Deployment sucks....... but were just about at the half way mark. Has it been 6 months?? It feels like it has been more than a few years lol. Life without Carlos sucks, Im not gunna lie. I am so thankful to the Lord that I have my babies to keep me sane(or insane?!?!) I basically feel like a zombie, I don't sleep much amymore(5am is my new bed time... yikes), and I live with the house, and cell phone within reach. Thank God for my BlackBerry, because I now have my email hooked up to it, so I can be notified when Carlos gets online. As of now, I live my life for emails and phone calls. Literally. Sometimes when he calls, its for less then a minute. It may be less then a minute, but in those few seconds I at least get to hear the love of my life tell me how much he loves and misses our girls and I. Its amazing.

This deployment is much, much worse then the 1st deployment. More worse in ways I could never describe.

As much as it sounds like I am whining, Im trying not too. I have sucked it up big time. I am alone with 3 kids, but I think I have managed it well. I just love that man, more then ever, and its so hard to be away from him for so long.


Thank you Carlos. Thank you for sacrificing your time, and your life to serve our country, and to make a better life for our family. We love & miss you more then you think you know. Not a second goes by that our daughters dont ask about you. Every day, every minute, and every second you are thought of, missed, and loved more, and more. We can't wait until you come home Carlos! We love you!

This happens to be one of my most favorite moments on earth. I love when Gabi has her pacifier in her mouth and she smiles while shes still sucking on it. I don't know why, but I love it!

We finally got some cute pictures done! Here are a few, but I have tons on my myspace!



My loves!
My fave!

I love it!

She was like, what the heck?!?!?!

there's that smile!

one of my favorites!

She looks like an angel!

Just precious!

This picture was candid, but i love it!

We took so many pictures of the girls together and this was the best shot we got lol! I still love it though!

So everytime we drive by Starbucks Adrianna says "Mommy! Foffee!!" Whenever I get Starbucks I get Adrianna a steamed milk with a shot of vanilla and she loves it! She thinks it's really "foffee" hahaha!

I just don't understand this face................

hehehehehe! Adrianna does this almost everytime I try to take a picture of her hahaha, I love it!

Me & my cousin/best friend when we were little!!



Well Feb 24th Jack AKA Fato will be coming to visit for 2 WEEKS! No one understands how excited , happy, blessed, and thankful I am that he is coming! He is my bestfriend! We have never been split up for more than a month or so and it has been over 6 months since I have seen him. I am trying not to cry right now... I know I sound like such a weenie, but I love him and am so happy I am going to see him! We all love him Carlos, the girls, and Kasper just adore him, he is such a blessing to have in our lives! He shines love and happiness! Adrianna loves him with all her heart, she talks about him all day, and when he's around, Carlos and I don't exist (which is kind of nice ;D) he is God father to Adrianna, Gabriella, and Kasper, so we all know they are very spoiled children! Ok, I think Im done boasting... ok well Im not, Fato coming to visit is about the only thing I know how to talk about at the time being hehehe!!

This is my first time starting a blog and I am so excited! I saw that a couple of my friends had blogs so I thought Id join in on all the fun! I don't have much time to write at this moment, but Im sure I will very soon!